Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Anba Abraam METROPOLITAN OF FAYOUM PROVINCE, EGYPT (1829-1914)


Life Story

In the year 1829 a.c. (1545 Coptic), in a village called "Calad" in Egypt, was born the child Paul Gabriel. His parents were righteous and loved God.

He was sent to the Church School. His teacher Rafael took care of him, taught him reading, writing, arithmetic, the Holy Scriptures and psalms, eccliastic hymns and psalmody. He was very intelligent and anxious to learn everything.

When he was eight years old, his mother became very ill, and a few weeks later died, leaving behind a lonely child... As he loved prayers and psalms, he found in it that God can bless his motions and fill all his heart.

When he was fifteen years old, he got famous among his mates; the priests recommended him to "Anba Youssab", the Bishop of the Diocese, who ordained him as a deacon during his visit to the village's Church.

As he loved the life of contemplation with God, so he joined St. Virgin Mary Monastery "El-ME-MEHARRAK" at Assuit in Egypt, when Rev. Father Abd-el-Malek was in charge of the monastery. He was very decent, active, and he loved all the monks. They recommended him and he was ordained as a monk when he was nineteen years old, in 1848. His new name was Rev. Paul E1-Meharraki.

He was distinguished by:

* 1. His patience and self-control.
* 2. His interest in almsgiving

Anba Yakoubos, the Bishop heard about him, he asked him to come to the "Bishop's house" and to remain with him. Rev. Paul worked day and night, and he changed the "Bishop's house" to a shelter for the poor.

His deep eagerness for contemplating with God turned him to ask the bishop to leave for the monastery again after he spent four years helping the bishop. Then the Bishop ordained him as a priest and allowed him to return to the monastery at 1863.

At that time there was a problem regarding Father Abdel-Malek, who was in charge of the monastery, but Father Paul did not interfere with these problems .

So the monks chose him to be in charge of the monastery. He opened the doors of the monastery for poor people, also young men heard about him and came, asking him to teach them, and after a short time they became forty monks.

The late "Anba Marcos", the bishop of Luxor, was ordained as a monk in 1870 at El-Maharrak Monastery and he grew up under the the leadership of Fr. Paul. Pope Kyrillos chose him in 1876 (Coptic) to teach the new monks at El-Baramous Monastery. He met his spiritual father again after five years and he remained with him until 1879 (Coptic) when he was ordained as a Bishop for Luxor. Up till now the people still remember much about his pure life, his holiness, deep love for praying, his modesty, and his special care about everyone, and about renewing the old churches and constructing new ones.

As usual the devil was furious when he saw the monastery opened for the poor, and young people were changed with their love for Jesus and their continuous prayers, and made some of the monks think that Fr. Paul was wasting the money of the monastery and they rebelled against him.

In 1870, Fr. Paul was asked to leave the monastery after being in charge for five years.

He went with four of his students to Cairo to meet "Anba Marcous" the Bishop, and at that time he was acting Pope, and they asked him to go to the Monastery of Anba Bishoy at the "Natroun-Valley" in the western desert of Egypt, where they remained for a short period. Afterwards they went to the next door El-Baramous Monastery in 1871 c. At that time the president of this monastery was Fr. John, who later became "Pope Kyrillos". he was so glad to receive them and he offered them a place to stay.

Fr. Paul devoted all his time to praying and study...but his deep love for the poor people did not end. He loved the hostile Arabs who were living in the area of the monastery and he shared with them everything he had, even his clothes.

In 1881 the Ethiopian Emperor, John Kassa asked Pope "Kyrillos", to ordain a metropolitan and three Bishops for the Ethiopian Empire, so he chose the four fathers who were accompanying Fr. Paul,

At the same time Anba Isaac the metropolitan of the province of Fayoum and Gieza departed, then the four fathers asked the Pope to ordain their father as a bishop for that diocese. The Pope and the people of the Fayoum became happy and joyful on that day, for the ordination of their new bishop "ANBA ABRAAM", in 1881.

During his time, the Diocese of the Fayoum became a great vine, in whose shadow the poor and rich sat with great delight.

When the Khadive Tawfik, Ruler of Egypt, visited El-Fayoum they made a great lunch-party. Anba Abraam was sitting very near to the Khadive. He did not eat except salad, and when the Khadive asked him he answered that the day was Fridays and the Christians are to fast on all Fridays. Then he ordered to bring him fruits and asked Anba Abraam to meet him again. He went to meet him at the railway station before he left, and the Khadive welcomed him deeply saying to him "You are a Blessed man..."

The rulers and governers..., even the tyrannical ones found rest in him. So the simple Bishop's home became their rest place.

In the year 1893 he was seriously ill with his leg, that the doctors decided to perform surgery to cut off his leg. When one of his spiritual children told him, he smiled, as usual, and said "God will not let it happen. I am sure He will let them down!"

After 2 months he recovered completely, and went out to the Church, praising God. The Bishop's house was very crowded. The people held the palm leaves and they were waving the olive branches with joy, when they heard of his recovery.

And it happened on Thursday (2 Baouna 1630 c.) 9 June 1914 after the sunset, our blessed father departed to Paradise.

Those who attended his funeral were more than ten thousand persons. Some have estimated it to be twenty five thousand, both Christians and Moslems. But the history of Anba Abraam has not ended, yet still in every Egyptian home there is a lot to be told about him, for he was really God’s loving man.

The Holy Council of Bishops decided that his name could be added with the Saints in the Holy Mass.

The blessing of our blessed Father Anba Abraam be with us. Amen.
Doxology for Anba Abraam

The lamp that lights
Fayoum and all Egypt
For His wonders and miracles
and his love for Christ

The one with crown of jewels
The friend of the anchorites
The friend of the righteous and prophets
Who followed our Lord Christ

He is Anba Abraam
The Bishop of Fayoum
The true shepherd
The teacher of virtues

David taught us in truth
That blessed are those
Who love the meek and poor
The Lord will save their souls

Like our Father Abrahaam
The Father of Issac and Jacob
You loved to show mercy
And completed all commandments

You were used to witness to the truth
You were used to eat with the poor
With great humility
You loved your sheep

The lovers of material things
Sought new buildings
But you built in heaven
Heavenly new places

How many are your wonders
You healed the sick
You prophecied about great things
You cast out the Devils

You became an example
With your pure example
With love and mercy
And witness to the truth

Ask the Lord on our behalf
Our father anba Abraam
The Bishop of Fayoum
So He may forgive us our sins.


The following are some of the miracles of Anba Abraam as reported by those who witnessed and/or experienced them. We are indebted to Fr. Mikhail Saad, Fr. Tadros Yacoub Malaty, Daar Al-Mahaba, and Deacon Malak Luka who wrote about Anba Abraam. We used some information from each publication, and other miracles we learned growing up in our beloved mother land, the blessed Egypt:

1. Cholera Epidemic, 1896 AD."

In 1896, Egypt suffered an epidemic of the Cholera, people were dying. They went to Anba Abraam one evening and told him about the horror that filled the city because of the large number of people dying everyday. Anba Abraam Replied: "Why are you afraid of death. If we do not die today, we will die tomorrow (meaning sooner or later wa all will die, no one can escape death). He asked them to bring Father Mikhail (his half brother)" When abouna Mikhail came, he told him to bring 200 sheets of paper and write on everyone: "We are the Servants of Jesus of Nazareth, who was Crucified." and he took the papers and blessed them with the sign of the Cross and prayed over it. He then gave it to abouna Mikhail instructing him to give a piece of paper to every family that asks for it and to instruct them to hang it outside the door of their house (following the example of Moses instructing the Israelites to sprinkle the blood on the sides and overhang of the door so the angel of death will pass over in the final plague" Every family that hanged this paper, on their door, was saved from the Cholera plague.

2. Healing From Rheumatic Arthritis:

The Departed Monk/Arch-priest Benjamin El-Syriani (From The Monastery of St. Mary Known as El-Syrian) told this story: In 1912, my Aunt Mrs. Feniara Abd-El-Malak El-KHangry from Meer, Assiut suffered from severe Rheumatic Arthritis in her legs. She could not walk. She and my father who suffered from severe bouts of headache traveled from Assiut to Fayoum by train. They went to see Anba Abraam. He prayed for both of them and they wee both instantly healed. My aunt went back home walking on her feet.

3. The Son of the Director of the Region of Fayoum:

The director of the Region (Hekmdar El-Fayoum) at that time in 1912 had a son who was crazed (had an unclean spirit). The director went to see Anba Abraam, told him about his son's condition concluding that the young man is crazed and could not keep his cloth on. He asked Anba Abraam to visit the family. Anba Abraam promised that he will. Anba Abraam prayed for the situation, and few days later he took his disciple and holy oil and went on foot to see this Moslem family. The boy saw him approaching, and ran to the house and told his mother that Abu Al-Nassara (the father of the Nazarene) is coming to see us. How could I meet him like that. The boy ran to the bathroom, and took a bath and put on some new cloth. He then came out and greeted Anba Abraam and kissed his hand and sat down. Anba Abraam blessed the boy and anointed him with the holy oil. The woman called her husband at work and told him all what happened. As soon as the husband heard his wife's story, he hurried home and greeted Anba Abraam kissing his hands and asking for more of his blessings. For a longtime, people in Fayoum talked about this incident always offering the praise to God who works through his saints, the likes of Anba Abraam.

4. The Servant of a Family Is Healed:

M.Y. from Fayoum told this story from his father the son of the late priest Youhana (John) Demitry who was a contemporary of Anba Abraam. Fr. Demitry from the family of Sharkawy, well to do, had a servant named Abd-El-Hady Goudah. The family used to spend the entire lent season in the monastery of the Arch-angel Gabriel near Fayoum. Anba Abraam used to visit the monastery and out of extreme delight with his coming, they would serve him tea in a silver cup. The servant saw Anba Abraam coming and started to mock and joke saying here comes sayeedhom (their master), .. etc. Moments later his stomach stretched and he began to cry from the severe pain. They took him to Anba Abraam. Anba Abraam shook him and asked him why he mocked him, afterwards he prayed for him and advised him not to mock again. The man threw up and was relieved of his pain. Years later, this same man was getting old and was unable to walk. He asked his son to take him to Abu Al-Nassarah (Father of the Nazarene). Anba Abraam prayed for him and he was able to walk again.

5. Power Over The Evil Spirits (Performing Exorcism):

This was recorded by the prominent English writer Leeder in his book: (The Copts) Modern Sons of the Pharos." Leeder wrote: "The bishop's power in exorcism of Evil Spirits has perhaps brought him more visitors from distant parts than any other gift he was famous for." Leeder wrote based on a story by the son of a blind teacher of hymnals (Muallem) of the great cathedral in Cairo at the time who was very intelligent and fluent in English and French, and had a responsible job in the government of Egypt. The man told Leeder that Anba Abraam Exorcised evil spirits from many people Moslems and Christians alike. One time a man named Guirguis was brought in with an evil spirit and Anba Abraam could not get the evil spirit to depart him. Anba Abraam was irritated, he told the parents to bring him to the Church during liturgy, they did. The man started to scream loudly which disturbed the people in the Church and made the officiating priest to pause. This brought Anba Abraam out to the sanctuary. Anba Abraam commanded the evil spirit to stop and not move saying: "In the Name of Jesus Christ the Crucified Nazarene stop and not move." The evil spirit stopped and after the service they took the man into the residence. Anba Abraam asked the man why he made so much noise during the service. "The evil spirit in him replied" "Did You put me in fire and ask me not to cry? A fire from the heaven was sent down to the table (altar) and approached to burn me!" Then as the bishop rebuked him, the evil spirit went out, and the man was healed.

6. The Devil Screamed:

This was told by Monk/Arch-priest Philopos El-Makkary (Philip from the Monastery of Anba Makkar). In 1906, while Anba Abraam was performing the prayers to exorcise the evil spirit from a devil possessed person, the devil wept and spoke to Anba Abraam trying to deceive him saying leave me alone, I am Christian and my name is George, baptized and only 7 days old. When Anba Abraam ignored him completely and continued to pray the devil said: "If it was not for the Cross in your hand, we would have destroyed you as you destroyed us." Immediately, the man screamed loudly and was rid of the evil spirit.

7. A Difficult Exorcism:

Mr. Mansour Girgis said that when they were praying Kereya-Laison (Lord Have Mercy) and Anba Abraam was putting his hand on the head of an ill-man named Masoud from Ekhmeem, the ill-man trembled in the beginning of the prayer and said; "Not you or ten like you can move me out!"
What follows is the conversation between Anba Abraam and the Evil Spirit:

Anba Abraam: God persecute you. Go out!
Evil Spirit: I do not know why you are living until this moment!
Anba Abraam: I live to fight you. What is your name?
Evil Spirit: My name is Abraam, the Bishop.
Anba Abraam: God rebukes you. Do you have bishops?
Then Anba Abraam put the cross on the head of the ill-man and the evil spirit cried: "The fire! The fire! I will go out," and he went out.
[Author's Comments: When I was in my teen in Egypt, Early 60's many exorcisms took place especially in Churches named after some of the Martyrs like St. George, St. Demiana, St. Markorios, .. etc. I witnessed many. A sign of the evil spirit leaving is blood coming out from the finger or one of the toes. We wrote about evil spirits in the book Essays for Orthodox Youth. We believe that evil spirits are still around bothersome to people, but with all the material things around us they don't need to manifest themselves the old way. They now just come and rule our lives. We need the power of prayer to stay free from evil. The devil flees from prayer, from the sign of the cross, and when commanded: In the Name of Jesus Christ the Crucified Nazarene." This name is a great power given to us, the believers. We should use it always.]

8. Serve's in the Episcopate:

H.Y.A from Alexandria told this story: In 1910. I was visiting my family in Fayoum, and as we were at the episcopate (residence of the bishop, Anba Abraam). I saw a sheik (old man) from Tanta named Moorsi, he was brought in by four strong men who struggled to control him because he did not want to go in. Anba Abraam, new about the struggle outside, so he took water, prayed on it and gave it to Rizk his disciple ordering him to sprinkle the water on the struggling man. This calmed the man down and he came in. Anba Abraam prayed on him and the evil spirit departed him immediately. The man stayed for several months in the house of the episcopate serving there to show his appreciation for the healing and as a way of thanking God for the gift (of healing).

9. The Price of Greed:

A prominent Moslem who was a friend of Anba Abraam, sent him a full fold of cloth material. It was given to a disciple named Mikhail Eed. Mikhail took half of the material and brought a half fold to Anba Abraam saying that this is what he received. Anba Abraam new, but did not say anything.
Months later the man came to visit and inquired about the full fold. Anba Abraam thanked him and assured him that it was received complete. After the man left, Anba Abraam asked Mikhail did you receive half or full fold. Mikhail denied that he kept anything. Anba Abraam said: "What are you going to do with the other half. It will become your burial cloth!"
Few days later Mikhail died and was buried in the cloth he denied he kept!
{Author's Comments: The parallel here is what Gehazi did with the gifts from Namaan the Assyrian to Elisha. Gehazi also suffered a terrible fate, he inherited the Leprosy of Namaan for lying and greed.

10. Fight Over A Gun:

A wealthy man from Fayoum lived a long life and had many possessions among them a prized gun. He had three sons and after his death one of the sons took the gun and hid it to keep it from his brothers. They went to Anba Abraam and they all swore they did not take the gun, especially the one that hid the gun swore most. Anba Abraam told them, the one that took the gun will be killed by the gun. They each went to his home. An argument developed between the one that took the gun and his wife, he went out and brought the gun to shoot her, the gun backfired and he was shot dead!

11. A Girl Who Desired to Depart the Faith:

A young Christian woman fell in love with a non-Christian and decided to depart the Christian faith and to marry this man. According to civil laws in Egypt, they had to inform the episcopate of the religion change request. Anba Abraam met with the young woman advised her not to change her faith and to forget about the man, but she wouldn't listen. Anba Abraam was irritated by her stubbornness and told her: "You do not desire the other religion, you desire the man. God will do to you as you deserve" As soon as she left, she fainted. The police came, they thought that there was a criminal act!
Anba Abraam heard that the young woman fainted on the street, he hurried to her, took water and prayed and sprinkled the water on he. She regained consciousness, and began to speak praising God and saying: "I saw with my own eyes......" After that she dropped the request, and changed her mind about this marriage, and lived a righteous life without marriage (to the end).

12. In the Absence of Her Husband:

A man went away for a full year, when he came back his wife was pregnant. He asked her, she insisted that he us the father. They went to Anba Abraam and told him their stories. The woman insisted in the presence of the man of God that her husband was the father. Anba Abraam, consoled the husband and concluded in front of both of them: " That which is of God remains, and that which is of the Devil shall fall." After a week the woman had a miscarriage, and died. And the sad truth became known and the word of the man of God was confirmed.

13. One Guest Kills His Companion:

Two men arrived at the house of the episcopate and asked to spend the night. They were allowed in, because Anba Abraam received any guest who came in, and offered food and shelter to any one that asked. One of the two knew that the other had a large sum of money in his bag, so because he had a wicked heart, he killed him and took his head and the money and ran. In the morning, the servants went, with a breakfast tray, to the room to check on the guests and found the decapitated body of one in a pool of blood and the other was gone. The servant informed Anba Abraam, who summoned the police and instructed them. Take my staff, and go to the railway station, and the one the staff points you to is the killer/thief. They did as he advised them and the staff of Anba Abraam led them to the killer. He was arrested and on searching his belongings they found the head of the victim and the money. He was convicted for his crimes, and received the punishment he deserved.
[Author's Comments: The Church opens its doors to everyone, good and bad alike. It is sad when people choose to do evil, but even God Al-Mighty will not change a person, if the person does not want to be changed, because God created us on his image , he gave us a mind and a free will. The more we observe the more we learn that it is up to us: "I knock on the door, if anyone opens to me, I come in and sup (have supper ) with him." If we don't open, he does not force his way. This evil man did not benefit from the example of Anba Abraam, and he reaped the rewards for his evil deeds.]

14. The Healing of Mr. and Mrs. Leeder:

Mr. Leeder was a prominent English writer, he and his wife heard, in England, about Anba Abraam and wanted to meet him. Anba Abraam was told about these foreign guests, but he did not particularly care for social calls. Then the messenger thought of a clever way to get them to meet Anba Abraam, so he went back and told Anba Abraam that Mr. Leeder suffered from some ailments, so he told him bring the poor man in if he is sick. Mr. and Mrs. Leeder were told of the way the messenger arranged their visit which made them more anxious to meet Anba Abraam. At the appointed time, Anba Abraam received them, put the wooden cross on their heads, prayed for them, and blessed them. And as it was his custom with first time guests, he gave them red and white oversized handkerchiefs, as a gift. This type is used by villagers to this day as a head cover and a nice, country, gift. They were thrilled with their healing, their visit and what they saw and also how Anba Abraam loved giving. Mr. Leeder commented, "We felt the presence of Christ in our Visit to Anba Abraam, and were filled with the Spirit of God through this visit"

15. Bringing Peace Between Two Feuding Bishops:

Anba Abraam was asked to a meeting in the house of the Patriarchate in Cairo to resolve a dispute between two feuding bishops. He went in, and saw endless arguing between the two, and no one in attendance was able to bring any to yield. Anba Abraam asked that all in attendance stand up to recite the Lord's Prayer together. He led the prayer audibly, and when he came to the verse: "forgives us our sins .." he instead said: "don't forgive us our sins, ..." so, some inquired how come Anba Abraam, he responded: "because we are not willing to forgive each other." This got the attention of the feuding bishops and they realized the need to forgive each other and the dispute was resolved that instant.

16. A Poor Priest Restored to The Priesthood:

Anba Abraam was called to the house of the Patriarchate to attend a meeting regarding the defrocking of a disobedient priest. The poor priest allowed an excommunicated bishop to conduct services in his Church. The bishops and prominent laymen decided that the priest is guilty and was to be defrocked. Anba Abraam so it different, he felt that a parish priest could not stand up to a bishop. He disagreed with all in attendance. Next to him was a prominent Copt, named Quallini Pasha. Quallini Pasha signed the decree. When it came to Anba Abraam, he refused to sign, and talked to Quallini Pasha scolding him for being harsh on a poor priest. One in attendance said: " Anba Abraam! Do You Know Who You Are Talking To. It Is Quallini Pasha" Anba Abraam Replied: "The Lord Lives Forever. Moses talked to God Al-Mighty!" Anba Abraam left the meeting and walked down the stairs to the sitting room on the first floor. As he was leaving he said: "The Lord Lives Forever. I will not enter this house again, if any evil befalls this poor priest." Some in attendance hurried after him begging him not to follow on with what he said. Anba Abraam answered them: If you bring this decree to me to tare it to pieces, I will forget everything I said. They went back and after discussion, they did as he said. They took the decree to him. He tore it to pieces, and went back to the meeting as if nothing happened. The priest was saved a great harm.

17. Hangs His Farageia (Coat) on A Ray of the Sun:

Anba Abraam received furniture for the episcopate. He refused to use it, and asked the servant to put it in storage. When a woman came to him complaining that her daughter's engagement is not going to result in a wedding, because they don't have money to buy furniture for her and her future husband. Anba Abraam told the servant to show her the new furniture, and let her take what she needed. Some of the people complained to Pope Kyrillos V about giving away the furniture. Afterwards, there was a collection to build a new house of the episcopate. Anba Abraam gave that money also to the poor and needy. There goes another complaint. The Pope summoned him. He went without delay and he was an old man, with poor eyesight. On his arrival, he was rushed in to see the Pope in his suite. It was a Summer afternoon, a ray of the sun through a hole in the shade of the window was mistaken by Anba Abraam as a robe (for hanging cloth which was a habit in those days to install robes for hanging cloth). Anba Abraam threw his Farageia (Coat) on it and it stayed there. The Pope saw how the Lord works wonders to not embarrass this saint on earth. The Pope changed the purpose of the call and instead inquired about his health and gave him 15,000 Egyptian Pounds to build a new house for the episcopate. When the people came back to see the Pope, he scolded them for their lack of faith, concluding: "How can I argue with a man of God who was able to hang his coat on a ray of the Sun" The new house of the episcopate was not built in Anba Abraam's life. The money was used to help the poor.

18. The Story of the Ameer-allay (Police Commander):
(Anba Abraam Receives and Gives to the Poor After His Departure)

A new police commander came to Fayoum. After a while he had a problem related to work. He was extremely upset over it. He went to see Anba Abraam whom he did not know, but heard about. As he wanted to talk, he could not speak his thoughts. Anba Abraam knew by the gift of knowledge in him the problem and the solution. He told him not to worry, this affair will end in a transfer to another region, nothing more. It happened as Anba Abraam told him. This man made it a habit to give Anba Abraam 5 Egyptian Pounds every year as a symbol of eternal appreciation. More than a year after Anba Abraam departed, he went to the monastery of Azab as he used to. He asked the guard where is Anba Abraam, the guard answered inside, meaning his remains are inside the Church. The man went in, and saw Anba Abraam standing as if he was waiting for him, he gave him 10 Egyptian Pounds because he was not able to visit the year before. The man handed him the money, and as he was leaving he ran to the guard again and inquired about Anba Abraam and why he was inside alone. The guard explained that Anba Abraam departed more than a year earlier. The man could not believe it and told that he saw him standing inside and that he handed him the donation. They all marveled about how God is glorified in his saints.

It is also told that a poor man walked into the Church that same day and Anba Abraam handed him the money he received from the police officer.

[There is a beautiful picture of Anba Abraam. The artist envisioned him standing and with the left hand receiving alms (giving) and the right hand is giving it almost instantaniously.]

19. The Healing of Anba Abraam's Leg:

We mentioned this story in Part I. Towards the end of his life, he had a soar wound in his left leg that would not heal. They summoned medical doctors who recommended amputation to prevent Ghangarin from spreading to the rest of his body. Anba Abraam replied: "This leg that served God does not deserve to be cut off" He prayed, asked the priests to anoint him with oil. The whole congregation wept and prayed for Anba Abraam. Two months later, his leg was completely healed, and it was a great celebration in Fayoum and around the country when Anba Abraam walked into the Church after being ill for many months.
[Author's Comment: We believe in divine healing through repentance, prayer, unction of the sick, and intercession. We also believe in the use of modern medicine, and this is a good example. Anba Abraam summoned the physicians and asked for their professional help. There should be no conflict between the two. Contrasting this incident with the ailment of St. Paul: In St. Paul's case the Lord's will was for him to have the thorne in the body and he heard it on the mouth of the Lord: "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. ' (II CORINTH 12:9). In either case, we accept the will of God in our lives.]

Miracles After His Departure

20. Light Over The Tomb:

A construction worker was working on building a tomb for the body of Anba Abraam. It got dark and he did not finish his work so he asked Anba Abraam to give him light, and he saw like a bright dove which gave him light until he finished his work.

21. Popular Portrait of Anba Abraam:

We all are familiar with the traditional portrait of Anba Abraam. There is a story behind it. Because in his time photography was fairly new, very few original portraits of Anba Abraam exist. People from all walks of life loved the story of Anba Abraam and wanted to have copies of his portrait to keep in their homes, so in 1954, forty years after his departure many wanted copies of the portrait. The Book store Al-Mahba (LOVE/AGAPE) wanted to make duplicates, but were not able to. They wanted to send it to Europe to be printed but could not because of the war of 1956. Fortunately, they were able to make a reprint in Egypt which was enlarged and was put on their annual calendar 11"x17" and they distributed many copies all over the See of St. Mark. In Egypt, Sudan, Ethiopia, and the Arab World. The Late Mr. Younan Nakhla the founder of Mahaba Bookstore and father of late blessed father Roufail Younan who served in North America, tells these stories.

22. Could Not Find Another Portrait:

S.R from Cairo, Egypt was attending a meeting which included some VIPs. One in attendance looked up and saw the Calendar with the portrait, and using unkind words said to the host: "Couldn't you find a better picture than this (to hang on your wall). I know Al-Mahba Bookstore, they are a quality store, they could have done better." S.R. protested to the man telling him that he should not belittle Anba Abraam because he is a saintly man and everyone Christian and non-Christian alike knows about his piety, good example, wonders, and miracles. And he continued to tell about the good example and the virtues of Anba Abraam. Afterwards, he left the meeting protesting that such comments were made. S.R. continues, I had ailment in my legs and could not climb stairs or walk long distances. In the night I saw Anba Abraam. He came to thank me for my courage and my defense of him and moreover he healed me. In the morning I felt much better than before, and was able to work with more vigor. I became able to climb the stairs and take long walks. S.R. went to Daar Al-Mahba (Mahaba House) in Geziraat Badraan, Shoubra, Cairo, Egypt to tell this story. Shortly thereafter an altar honoring Anba Abraam was added to the small Chapel inside Daar Al-Mahba.

23. The Visiting Nurse and The Portrait of Anba Abraam:

A male nurse visited many homes in Cairo to check on patients and give them injections. One time he complained about this portrait which he saw in many Christian homes saying: "Who is this priest with tense features I see every where I go? Couldn't they hang another picture in these homes?" The same day after he went to sleep, he heard a voice calling him and saying: "Don't you like my picture?" this was repeated three times, and he could see the person. He looked like the one in the portraits hanging in those homes he visits everyday. He walk up scared and started to feel that one of his legs is heavy and he could not move it. He felt deep sorrow and stayed home that night and the following day weeping and asking forgiveness. The following night Anba Abraam appeared to him and spoke to him saying: "The Lord accepted your repentance and forgave you your sin." and disappeared. Immediately his leg felt better and was able to move normal. In the morning, he went out and bought a number of those portraits and started to distribute them himself.
[Author's Comments: God does not take by appearance. We know what happened to the children of Israel when they mocked Elisha the prophet and man of God. He cursed them, and a bear came and devoured them. There is a true story about a man who spoke evil of Pope Kyrillos VI. Anba Kyrillos by the gift of knowledge knew it, and told the man: "Why don't you like us. I love you very much. Please come to see me anytime. The man was dumbfounded. He became a disciple of Pope Kyrillos. Through the prayers of Pope Kyrillos his son was healed from heart ailment and many good things happened to this family. He recorded a cassette tape about many wonderful things that he witnessed through the prayers of St. Mena and Pope Kyrillos. The man lives to this day, he is a highly regarded doctor educated in England. Through the love shown him by the departed Pope Kyrillos, he was changed from a non believer in all religions to a strong believer in God, the Christian faith, and the power of prayers and intercessions.]

24. His Arm Could Not Move:

This happened to a man in a village in the region of Dairut. He did not like the portrait of Anba Abraam and started to speak evil about the picture and the person saying that it is depressing to look at the picture. Then he threatened to bring a gun and shoot the picture off the wall. His friends and family tried to convince him not to do that, but he insisted. He brought the gun and aimed at the picture, but his arm froze and could not shoot. Afterwards, he became mentally disturbed and ended up in the public mental institution (Saraya Al-Safra) in Cairo.
[Author Comment: Sad as it is, we reported it to show that we are free to do what we desire. But, when we do evil or mean spirited things, there is punishment from God awaiting for those who deserve punishment. The difference between this person and the one mentioned above is simple. One repented and was forgiven and healed, the other did not! We firmly believe that: have Judas Iscariot repented, and asked forgiveness, he would have been forgiven.]

25. Anba Abraam Cloths and the Healing of A Sick Person:

Mrs. D.A.W told about her infant son who became ill with high fever. She took him to the doctor and was given potent medications in excess to bring the fever down. But there was no improvement whatsoever. Her neighbor, Al-Aam (Uncle) Girgis Mankarios came to visit and when he heard about the condition of the baby, ran to his house and brought taquia (soft hat) that he inherited from his father who kept this and other pieces of cloth used to be worn by Anba Abraam. Uncle Girgis put the soft hat on the infant's head and he left. In the early morning of the following day, we started to notice improvements and the temperature started to go down. We knew that our son was healed through the prayers and intercessions of Anba Abraam. when the Doctor saw my son, he was amazed for the sudden drop in temperature (sudden healing).

26. The Healing of a Child from Sudan:

In February 1963, a man who owns an export company arrived in Fayoum for the baptism of his son. He told the reason he came all the way from Sudan. This boy was ill when he was an infant, the father was used to seeing the portrait of Anba Abraam in Christian homes all over Sudan, so he asked the intercession of Anba Abraam for his son. When he got home from work he found the infant was healed. When he inquired, he was told that a man in white priestly cloth came in that day and prayed for the infant and anointed him with oil for the healing of the sick (Unction, Healing of the Sick mystery). He knew it was Anba Abraam. And that was the reason they traveled to Fayoum for the child's baptism.

27. The healing of an Arch-priest:

Y.G. told: in 1962, our arch-priest Fr. Bishoy Abd El-Messih, the deputy to the bishop of Demiaat at the time became extremely ill. He had internal bleeding inside the chest cavity. We all prayed with warmth of the heart, asking the intercession and blessings of Anba Abraam for Fr. Bishoy. Immediately the pain ceased and the bleeding stopped and our Arch-priest was healed completely.
[Author's Comments: I remember a similar incident which happened to a reverend father in Los Angeles California in the early 70's when there was one Church in the whole area of Los Angeles. The congregation prayed for their priest every day for a week at an agreed evening hour, because he was sick, and they needed his services really urgently. The Reverend father was healed through the prayers and intercessions of many loving believers. That is why it is important to pray for each other in belief.]

28. Protected Him Even When He Doubted:

Engineer M.Z.A from Hadeqaa Gadida, Fayoum told this story. In the 60's I went with my uncle to visit the tomb of Anba Abraam in Deir Al-Azab (St. Markorios, the two swords, Monastery, Fayoum). At the time there was some remodeling work inside the Church and they had many wooden beams tied with robes all over the sealing. My uncle knelt down and started to pray and implore Anba Abraam. I started to joke telling my uncle: "stop this act, the man died and longed in death (shebe moot)." I was leaning with my hand on a wall, and as soon as I finished saying these foolishness, I moved my arm away and a wooden beam fell exactly where I was standing a minute earlier. At this moment, my uncle was finished with his prayers and turned to me and said: "This is because of your foolish words." I shivered, and felt extreme fear inside me. I fainted and fell on the floor and then felt a hand lifted me on my feet. From that day I regularly visit Deir Al Azab, the tomb of Anba Abraam, and other monasteries as well.

29. A Soldier Saved from Imminent Death in The Battle of 1000 Tanks, 1973:

S.H.G from Fayoum told this story. I was a member of the 52 Battalion (Army), 18 Division, 21st Armored Vehicle. This battalion fought the 1000 tanks battle in central Sinai on Oct. 18, 1973. I prayed and asked the intercession of Anba Abraam saying: "God, save me from shrapnels in my arms or my feet and do not let me die." At that moment I had a shrapnel in my left leg, and fell down unconscious. I was taken to field hospital and consequently transferred to Cairo University Medical Center (Kasr El-Einy). Later on, I learned that the entire division died in the battle, except me. I still have the shrapnel in my left leg. I believe that my life was saved through the prayers and intercessions of Anba Abraam.
[Author's Comments: A dear friend of mine was saved death in the war of 1967 through prayers and intercessions he was carried from the battle field by his division commander because he was injured. He was taken to the back of the battle field and later transferred to Cairo. We can not say why some die and some are saved, but for me, I will always ask the prayers and intercession of the saints when I am in any danger!"

30. Let My Children Come To Me:

B..W from Alexandria wrote: I was enlisted in the army and was assigned to a unit in Fayoum. My unit commander prohibited leaves on Sundays, so we could not go to Church. Suddenly, our unit commander gave all the Christians in my unit orders to go to Deir Al-Azab in Fayoum, we were extremely surprised. So, one asked him why the sudden change, he said "Sheik Al-Nassara (the elder of the Christians) came to me in the night and called me by name saying: Ismael: let my chidden come to me." We asked him who is Sheik Al-Nassara, he pointed to the portrait of Anba Abraam and said he looked like the man in this picture. Commander Ismael was surprised to learn that Anba Abraam departed (died) many tens of years earlier. In appreciation and respect, he took an offering and went to Deir Al-Azab and asked for the blessings of Anba Abraam.

31. Walked without Crutches:

M.T from Muharaam Beck, Alexandria told: In 1981, my grandmother died. I loved her so much, I carried her (body) all by myself which caused me to injure my back. I had symptoms of slipped disk. For a longtime, I had to use crutches to move around. One day we went to visit Deir Al-Azab, tomb of Anba Abraam. I the monastery's Church, St. Markorios, I was told that there is a chair that Anba Abraam sat on. I sat on this chair and asked the prayers and intercession of Anba Abraam saying: "I will not get off this chair until my back is healed!" I sat there for about half an hour (praying), and then I started to feel the healing of my back. I got up from the chair and walked without crutches. I did not need them anymore.

32. Greeting Card Do Not Burn:
Mrs. A.Y.H from Alexandria told: My father was an irrigation engineer during the time of Anba Abraam> As a matter of fact, Anba Abraam performed the ceremony for my parents wedding. My father had a greeting card from Anba Abraam, written with his own hand. He kept it over the years. One day, we were burning some old papers and this card was included, by mistake, in the pile. It is amazing all the papers burned, except for this card which did not burn!

33. A Miracle in New South Wales, Australia:

On 6/10/1985, the Church here was celebrating the departure of Anba Abraam. Fr. Moussa Soliman was the officiating priest, the service was scheduled for very early morning, 4:30 A.M. The priest and deacons were in the Church. An elderly lady who attended the services regularly was there also, at that early hour. As she looked toward the altar room, she saw a beautiful portrait of Anba Abraam hanging in the air above the altar with no support. She screamed asking the help of the priest saying: "How could you hang such expensive and beautiful picture in the altar room with no support" The priest went to investigate, and did not find such thing. They all new that Anba Abraam is present with them, even in Australia, thousands of miles away from Egypt.
This blessed old lady is still with us. The blessings of Anba Abraam be with us always.

34. My Son the Arch-priest Ibrahim Fahmy from Alexandria Was Healed:

The father of Arch-priest Ibrahim Fahmy Nawar from Alexandria told this story. My son, Arch-priest Ibrahim was diagnosed with blockage of arteries of his heart and a weak heart valve. He was sent to London, England for surgery by the famous Coptic (Egyptian Christian) heart surgeon, Dr. Magdy Yacoub. He was accompanied by his brother who is a medical doctor. They stayed in the home of Fr. Antonious Thabet, a prominent coptic priest.

At the home, my son noticed the portrait of Anba Abraam. He commented to Abouna Antonious:" This is a beautiful picture." Abouna Antonious commented: "Anba Abraam Is the Guardian of this House "

During catheterization, without full anathtesia, my son was awake. He saw Anba Abraam standing there all the time. The result was very amazing. The heart valve was OK! The Blockage was no longer evident. And with simple medication, Fr. Ibrahim Fahmy Nawar, was back to normal. He told us in our home in Meet Ghamr about this miracle. He continues to remember Anba Abraam fil-magmaa (in the congregation of the saints part of the liturgy).
[Author's Comments: We translated the story from Arabic as told. The father of Fr. Ibrahim meant that Fr. Ibrahim mentions Anba Abraam and gives him glory more than ever before, since Anba Abraam name is mentioned in the congregation of the saints by Church Law as one of the saints. Also, as we delight with Abouna Ibrahim, we know that some people with blockage are healed medically through Cathetarization. But, we still praise God for Abouna's healing. It is much easier to have a Catheter than to have an open heart surgery. Glory be to God in his Saints.]
35. The Miracle of A Church In St. Louis:

The people who came to St. Louis from Egypt in the early 1970's, around 1972 did want to settle as immigrants, have respected jobs, sometimes any job at first, and worship God the way we did in Egypt. When the Church was incorporated in 1974, they had disagreement. Some wanted to call the Church St. Mary's, others wanted to call it St. Abraam's. The two groups reached agreement calling our beloved Church St. Mary & St. Abraam Coptic Orthodox Church of St. Louis.

We were blessed with one after another of visiting priests: From Canada, the late Fr. Roufail Younan, and from New York, Fr. Youhana Tadros, of St. MayChurch in Queens New York. Also the late Fr. Antonious Baky, Fr. Zakaria, Late Fr. Ghobrial Abd El-Sayed (His grandfather, was Fr. Abd Al-Sayed who served as deputy to Anba Abraam). We also were served by Fr. Ibrahim Aziz, St. George Church, Bellflower, LA, California, the Late Fr. Marco Daowd (A know author, and translator of great works who used to come from Egypt to visit his grandson in St. Louis), Fr. Mankarios Awadalla, former professor of rituals at the college of divinity who serves in St. Demiana in Ontario, Canada.

Fr. Wessa Bessada is the first priest to serve as resident priest in St. Louis: 1979-1981.

Fr. Ekladious Hanna Khalil served as resident priest: 1981-1987. He commissioned the architectural drawings and was instrumental in purchasing the 3 acres behind the house and converted garage.

Monk/Fr. Reuis Anba Paula served our community 1987-1988. He tried to purchase a building on Manchester Road to solve the problem of not wanting to go through a major construction project. The purchase was not completed, because the seller, a Church, asked for an unreasonable price for a 25 years old building facing North. It would have been difficult to convert it to a traditional Eastern Orthodox Church. Fr. Reuis started many youth activities, and weekly bible studies at different homes, combining social and spiritual service.

Fr. Bassellious Sedrak is our blessed priest since 1988. Fr. Bassellious preferred to take his time in getting the people to reach consensus which was a very successful approach in getting the people to join together, Through patience and many visits by his Grace Bishop Tadros of Port Said, we were able to get majority agreement to build in our location at 1843 Ross Ave.

Each priest who served the congregation in St. Louis brought an improvement to the service and a special gift. We are blessed by all of them.

We are a small congregation, but through God's Grace and the prayers and intercessions of St. Mary and St. Abraam the Church is able to meet its financial and spiritual obligations. We are proud to be in the forefront of attempting to recite the liturgy in English, not very easy to do initially. We also are the first Church to produce a full English language monthly news letter, which has all original writings. St. Mary's Message started in 1984 and stopped for a few years after 1988. We are back in circulation again.

The Church building started in 1979 as a small Chapel in a converted garage of a house which is used as priest's residence and an extension used as a social hall. We always desired to build a Church which is more appropriate. The congregation was split three ways: Some wanted to build, some wanted to buy an existing building and modify it to take a Coptic shape, and the third group preferred no change.

In 1984, God guided us to acquire three acres of land behind the property we had. Also, through God's help and the prayers and intercessions of St. Mary and Anba Abraam, the owner sold us the land at a bargain price with owner provided finance to save the Church the trouble of going through the process of obtaining a bank loan. The land was paid in three years, phenomenal achievement of 25 families.



Inspite of the objections, Coptic style architectural plans were prepared in 1985. We had offers to build for about $850,000 but could not get the project started because of lack of unity and the inability to raise even 20% of the needed funds. In early October, 1989 his Holiness Pope Shenouda made a historic 60 days visit to the USA. St. Louis, was fortunate to have his holiness in our city for a memorable 26 hours (We had it counted to the last minute). His holiness honored us and blessed us. He received the key to our city, and October 10,11 of 1989 were declared Pope Shenouda's days in St. Louis.

His holiness wanted to bless the grounds and put a cornerstone, but the plan was derailed because of strong objections from group 2. Group 3 did not object, but did not support either. His Holiness with the wisdom in him gave us a deadline. Find land or building by Epiphany (Jan 19, 1990) or accept the existing plans. Needless to say Jan 19, 1990 came and nothing happened. It became a decision by default to build at the location we have been using since 1979.

One of us in his private devotions challenged Anba Abraam saying: "Anba Abraam you always loved the poor, may be you don't want a new Church building in St. Louis." We also wondered; If it was going to take $850,000 to build in 1985, it must cost twice that much ten years later. In 1993; 3 years after the deadline, we woke up. We called around, we were told $1.2 Million. We were also told; banks do not lend money to non-profit organizations, especially Churches. Ad to all this an ethnic Church!

The Miracle: Somehow, the construction business was weak all over the country in the late 1993. This affected both construction firms and banks. We got three bids ranging from $850,000 to $1.2 M, but when we went back to the $1.2 M bidder, the vice president told our member charged with the project that the bid was a ROM (Rough Order of Magnitude). When they sat to discuss it, they found ways to reduce the bid. This they did. Final bid was ~$650,000. If this is not a miracle, I don't know what is!

Back to the bank and financing issues, the same bank which refused us funding in 1985, came up with a construction/mortgage loan package which was extremely competitive accepting the signatures of five members of the congregation as co-signers with the Church. It even became sweeter when another bank got on the action and offered same terms, with 1% less in interest. This made the first bidder to meet the new terms. His Grace Bishop Tadros came one more time to St. Louis, we had a vote under his direction, and in his presence. The project as proposed received majority approval.

Construction started on October 1, 1993. As the project progressed, there was some problems related to the weather (extreme cold, an d heavy snow not common for St. Louis). Seems like the old devil did not want it to reach completion. But starting in March, 1994 the weather improved and we started to see the Church building taking beautiful shape with high windows, curved roof, and Coptic style (half circle) spherical domes. We got more aggressive, we asked that the basement level floor be completed with the Church and have a functional kitchen and Social Hall/Sunday School/Nursery compound user ready on opening day. WOW!

In June 1994, His Holiness Pope Shenouda was on a visit to the USA. Fr. Bassellious showed him photos of the building under construction. Pope Shenouda was thrilled, but was not sure it will be ready for consecration on a second visit to the USA planned for the fall of that same year.

We had October First as a tentative date for opening/consecration. The contractor promised to do all he could. Every sub-contractor involved worked extra hard to meet the date. Invitations were sent out to heads of Churches, civic groups, members and friends of the Church. We were able to finish everything except for carpeting, airconditioning, and painting of the altar rooms. We were give a 24 hour temporary building use permit by the city of Maryland Height just to complete the consecration.

On Saturday, October 1, 1994; His Holiness accompanied by their Grace bishop Serabion and bishop Karas arrived at 7:00 PM to open the new Church Building. In attendance his holiness the Patriarch of the Orthodox Church in India, who was on an unrelated visit to St. Louis, and his eminence arch-bishop Rigalli of the Roman Catholic Arch-diocese of St. Louis among other heads of Churches, priest, lay people. The Church was overflowing with its children, friends, and honored guests. This Saturday evening service was followed with a Sunday consecration service, and we had to close the building for two more months to finish construction.

The new building is in use since that time. We are all now united on one thing: We are glad a new Church building was completed for the glory of God and we all now know the power of God and the intercession of his saints, the like of St. Mary and Anba Abraam. And, it is always better to seek knowledge and use wisdom in gaining consensus. Sometimes, guided by the Holy Spirit, we take bold steps, like going ahead with the purchase of land, and the commissioning of architectural drawings. But, the conclusion was through a long convincing process. And we all won.

Kyriacos and Eulita his mother

St. Anatolios, the patriarch of Constantinople wrote:

In your tender years, you endured more than anyone, O victorious Kyriacos.

Come and see all people this rare and magnificent scene; the mighty ruler, with all his torturing instruments, loses the battle against a young child. What a wonderful sightl The baby feeds on his mother's milk, and then tells her, "Do not be afraid mother, Jesus is our strength, death is no more, because Christ has risen."

Rejoice Iconium, for from you came great martyrs: the blessed Eulita and her saintly son Kyriacos. They trampled under their feet the devil and all his wicked means. They received the crowns of martyrdom, and taught us how to worship the Holy Trinity. Therefore, we also have faith that Christ who glorified them, can grant us His peace, and save our souls.

Asia Minor was divided in many provinces by the Roman empire: Cappadocia, Phrygia, Galatia, Cilicia, Lycaonia... SS. Paul and Barnaba the Apostles preached the Gospel of Jesus Christ in Iconium which was the capital of the province of Lycaonia, and when they learned that the pagans plotted against them, they fled to Derbe and then to Lystra before they returned again to Iconium. (Acts 14)

There in Iconium, Eulita, a descendant of the Asian kings, was born towards the end of the third century. She grew up to be a beautiful and rich woman. But she was also a good Christian, who spent most of her time in praying and helping the poor. Eulita got married at a young age. She had only one son; Kyriacos was a very beautiful baby who grew up in a spiritual atmosphere. When he was a little over one year old, his first spoken words were, "I am Christian."

Life in Iconium did not remain peaceful for a long time. Eulita's husband passed away suddenly, and she had to raise her son by herself. And when Kyriacos was about three years old, Diocletian, the Roman emperor, started the worst persecution ever against the Christians. His orders were carried out through the whole empire. The ruler of Lycaonia, Domitiatos, was known to be very savage in persecuting the believers. Hundreds of them were killed every day.

Feeling worried about her son, Eulita took Kyriacos, along with two of her maids and fled to Seleucia in Syria. But the situation there was no better than in Iconium. So they left to Tarsus which was the capital of the province of Cilicia (and the birthplace of Paul). The Roman tetrarch in that city, whose name was Alexandros, was also very cruel and blood-thirsty. He used to kill the Christians with his own hands.

Eulita and her companions lived as strangers among the people of Tarsus, and were soon arrested and brought before Alexandros. At that point Eulita understood that this was an invitation from God to martyrdom, since she could not escape persecution in three different provinces. So she decided in her heart to remain faithful, and to endure all kind of pain until the end. She longed to die as a martyr for the sake of the Lord. Her only concern was Kyriacos' future. When Eulita was presented to Alexandros, the Roman ruler, he was sitting on a chair elevated by few concrete steps, and surrounded by many different instruments of torture. The tetrarch stepped down from his chair, and went near the saint.

He asked, "What is your name, you beautiful woman?" Eulita answered, "I am Christian." Alexandros said, "So you follow Jesus whom the Jews crucifiedl" She replied, "I call upon His holy name, though I am not worthy." He asked, "Do you know that our emperor ordered the extermination of all the Christians?" She answered, "Yes, I know." He said, "Aren't you scared of death? Don't you want to save your beauty?" Eulita said, "Governor, you must know by now that all Christians are willing to die for their Lord the Christ. Your cruel tactics and severe abuse will only strengthen their faith."

At that point the ruler got mad, went back to his chair, and told his men, "Bring me that child from the Christian woman, throw her on the ground, and whip her with lashes made of cow's nerves. She must learn how to answer the Roman ruler." So, the soldiers took away Kyriacos, who was now crying and kicking, from the arms of his mother, and gave him to Alexandros. Then they threw Eulita on the ground, and started whipping her without mercy.

The ruler looked at Eulita, who was now covered with blood, and said, "Why don't you come back to your senses and save your life, and your son's too? For if you agree to sacrifice to my idols, I promise to release both of you." Eulita said, "You surprise me with such an offer, which even a child like my son would not accept." The ruler said, "In this case, let us ask the child." Then he looked at Kyriacos and said, "Son, would you agree to worship the idols?" But to everyone's surprise, Kyriacos answered, "Your idols are made of stone and wood. My real God is Jesus Christ." When Eulita heard that, she was filled with courage, and shouted, "I am Christian; I worship the real God Jesus Christ who made heaven and earth." At the same time Kyriacos also started yelling, "I am Christian, I am Christian."

The soldiers started beating Eulita again, but she was enduring the pain with joy, giving her son a practical example on how to remain faithful until the end. In the meantime, the ruler was trying to attract the baby's attention by playing with him. Kyriacos kept shouting, "I am Christianl I am Christianl" The tetrarch got mad at this strange child, and he threw him with all his power to the ground. Kyriacos hit his head against one of the concrete steps, and died instantly, to receive the crown of martyrdom. He was only three years old.

That incident disgusted many people who were present because of the inhuman manner the ruler treated Kyriacos. As for Eulita, when she saw her own son fall dead in front of her, she sighed with relief, since she was sure that he went to Jesus in Paradise, and that she did not have to worry about his future. So she lifted up her eyes to heaven and prayed, "Thank you my Lord because you considered Kyriacos worthy of receiving this glorious crown. I ask you now my Savior to take me also, for this is my ultimate desire to be with my son in the Heavenly Kingdom, where we can enjoy Your presence with us for eternity."

Eulita's words angered the Roman ruler to a great extent, so he ordered her to be beheaded. He also ordered that the two bodies be thrown in a garbage dump. Eulita was executed on July 22, 305 (Abib 15) while she was repeating, "I am Christian. I am Christian." At night, her two maids took the bodies and hid them in a cave near Tarsus. When Constantine, the first Roman emperor, came to power, he built a church in the same place where the mother and her child were martyred. Today, parts of the relics of those two saints are preserved in St. Mary's monastery (The Syrian) in the valley of Nitron. There is also a historical church bearing their names in Tahta.

May the prayers and the supplications of St. Kyriacos, and his mother St. Eulita the martyrs be with us. Amen.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Pope Matthews the Poor (Matta El-Meskein) 1378 - 1409 A.D.

An Italian Monk, Peter the Hermit succeeded in persuading the kings of Europe to prepare an army bearing the banner of the cross with the purpose of freing the Holy Land from the Muslims. About half a million horsemen were sent to conquer these lands. However , they lacked leadership, diplomacy and knowledge of the environment.

The age of the Crusaders which started in 1096 signaled the beginning of the Mamluk's era, which was considered the worst age the Copts had lived through. As the Muslims saw the invaders carrying crosses, they thought that the Copts will side with them. On the other hand, the Catholic Crusaders viewed the Copts -who believed in the One nature of Christ (mia-physites)- as outcast schism, and worse than heretics.

Jerusalem's Latin Ring Amalrich invaded Egypt through Bilbeis and killed all its natives indiscriminately. When Shawer the Egyptian ruler sensed the danger approaching, he poured 20000 barrels of tar on the capital city of Fustat, and had his men ignited it with 10000 torches. The inferno lasted for 54 days.

During this era Many Coptic personalities appeared like shining stars in the darkest straits of all times. One of these great personalities was Abba Matthews I.

As a young boy, Matthews worked in tending the sheep of his father. He used to give his food to the shepherds, and spend the whole day in fasting. When he was fourteen he was admitted to the monastery to practice asceticism and worship. He was ordained a priest at the age of eighteen. Then he left to St. Antony's monastery to escape vainglory. He did not tell any of the monks about his priesthood, but rather used to serve mass as a deacon. Once, while he was reading the Gospel a heavenly hand appeared and offered him incense three times. Seeing that, the elders of the monastery said that he should be elected a patriarch.

For the second time he escaped to the Holy Land in Palestine, and worked in construction. But when he heard that the Copts were persecuted because of the Crusaders' actions, he returned to St. Antony's Monastery. That time, he was appointed abbot of the monastery.

Shortly after hin ordination, Prince Yalpogha led the monks and their abbot in humility through the streets of Cairo to avenge the Crusaders. For the Crusaders had raided Alexandria, killing many, and kidnapping others before they fled; and since they bore the sign of the cross on their breasts, this roused the ruling prince and his men against the Copts.

Once again, Matthews left to Al-Muharraq monastery to work in the kitchen, and serve the elders. He lived a life of self-denial, and did not allow himself to have more than one garment. It was said that he was a friend of the wild beasts, who used to keep him company outside the monastery.

In the year 1378, after Abba Gabriel IV, the 86th Pope departed to heaven, the Coptic bishops and people, with one accord, chose Abba Matthews to be the next patriarch. On hearing the news, Matthews escaped and hid in the bottom of a ship, but a little child exposed his hiding place. Finally, he solicited the council of the elders of st. Antony's monastery, and accepted their decision. Escorted to Alexandria, he was consecrated the eighty-seventh Pope, and gave himself the title "El Meskin" which means "The Poor".

The fact that Abba Matthews became the 87th Pope of the See of St. Mark did not change him a bit. He cared for the poor, loved to give alms, and was always humble. Through the heavenly wisdom given to him, it happened that he was inspired to buy lots of wheat before a famine. And when the famine struck he distributed the grains to anyone who asked for it, without any discrimination between Muslims, Jews, or Christians. He gave generously, and God blessed his crop, so it did not diminish.

Matthews was always venerated by God and also by men. When he stood before the Altar, his face often radiated with divine light and his eyes glittered, as he looked to our Savior Jesus Christ who often appeared to him. Also, because of his heavenly wisdom, people used to ask his advise in their private matters. The ruler Barquq asked the Pope's advise before accepting "Sultanism".

One day, Sultan Barquq asked Pope Matthews to write to the king of Ethiopia whose name was Wedom Asghar. But Matthews wrote to his brother Dawoud instead. When the messengers arrived in Ethiopia, they found out that Wedom Asghar had died, and that Dawoud had become the new king. Dawoud received the papal letter, and asked them about the two presents sent to him by the Pope (which were a cross and a handkerchief.) The messengers were astonished that he knew about these presents, but he told them that the Pope appeared to him in a dream, and told him about what was going to happen.

Through his cordial relation with Sultan Barquq, he was able to stop the mop from burning Al-Muallaqa church and the Shahran monastery, because the Muslims were claiming that new constructions were taking place in those two locations. The Sultan appointed four Judges of Islam who declared the falsehood of such claims.

Then the situation worsened when two MamluR princes, exiled Sultan Barquq, and took his place. Mentach and Yalpogha inflicted severe sufferings upon the Copts and their Pope. Finally, Yalpogha arrested Pope Matthews and imprisoned him. When he tried to kill him by the sword, the Pope stretched his neck to him. The prince was deeply troubled, and he ordered Abba Matthews to be released. Later, Yalpogha himself was imprisoned and died in his chains in Alexandria.

Pope Matthews was a good shepherd to his people, particularly the poor and the sick. God granted him the gift of performing miracles. During the renovation of St. Mary's church, a large stone fell on one of the workers and killed him instantly. The Pope prayed over the body, and the Lord raised him.

During the reLgn of Sultan Al-Nasser Farag, a violent prince called Sodon plundered the palace of Al-Nasser. He plotted with some of his followers to massacre the Copts. Pope Matthews devoted seven days to fasting and praying in St. Marcorius' church. At the end of that period the Blessed Virgin Mary appeared to him and comforted him. Matthews came out of the church with his face shining like that of an angel. Shortly after that, Sodon summoned the Pope to the palace, and confessed to him the plot he intended against the Copts.

Yet the tribulations inflicted upon the Copts by Sodon and his supporters became very severe. As a result, the Pope retreated in Archangel Michael's church dedicating his time to prayer and fasting. Then news came from the palace that Sodon was stabbed by a horseman six days ago; the exact time when the Pope started his retreat.

One of the Mamluks called Gamal-El-Din, also caused troubles to the Pope, and started persecuting the Christians. He imposed on the Pope a tributing of five hundred thousand dinars, which the Copts had to raise among themselves. Gamal-El-Din continued his persecution, and ordered the Pope to appear before him in the palace. But the Pope asked the messengers to wait until the next day. That night, God rested the soul of Pope Matthews El Meskin, after serving his flock for thirty years and 5 months. Abba MatthewE foretold the name of his successor Pope Gabriel V. Also, the miracles that were performed through his prayers continued after his death, and until this day.

May the prayers and supplications of this great Saint Pope Matthews I (El Meskin) be with us. Amen.

Abba Onnophrios the Anchorite (Abu Noffer)


The Life of Abba Onnophrios Anchorite

The life and the conversations of our holy father, who was glorious in every way, "Abba Onnophrios" the anchorite who's life ended on the sixteenth day of Paone in the peace of God. May God bless us. Amen.

A certain brother who was an anchorite and who�s name was Papnoute made a discourse to the God loving brethren and these where the words which he addressed to them:

I, your brother, was thinking one day and determined to go into the inner desert so I might see if there were any brethren who where monks living in the most remote parts of it. I marched four days and four nights and I neither ate bread or drank water. I marched on into the inner desert, at the end of the further number of days I journeyed into the mountain. When four days had passed by I felt pain and I stretched out my hands to heaven and prayed. I saw a man coming toward me and he gave me strength. In short, when four days had passed I journeyed on into the desert. Straightway I looked and I saw a man in the distance. He was an exceedingly terrifying object for his hair was spread over his body like that of a panther. He was naked, his private parts were covered with leaves. When he had come close to me I was afraid, I went up on a pinnacle of the mountain thinking that he was a man in delirium.

When he had come he cast himself for a little time under the shadow of the pinnacle of the mountain. He was greatly distressed because of the pain which he was suffering. He was in great danger of dying of hunger and thirst. He lifted up his eyes to the pinnacle of the mountain and when he saw me he cried out saying, "Come down to me oh you holy man I also am a man of the mountain like you and I am living in the desert because of my sins ." I said to myself, "You art a friend of God." I sat down before him to tell me his name and he said unto me, "Onnophrios is my name and behold I have lived in this desert for sixty years. I wander about in the mountains like the wild animals and I never see any man who recognizes me. I lived at one time in a habitation of monks in the mountain of Shmun of the Thebaid and the name of that monastery was Erete. We all lived together, each of us were of the same mind and peace dwelt in our midst. We lived with each other a life of quiet contemplation, giving glory onto God.

I passed nights in vigil with them and I learned the rules of God with them. There chief men where perfect as Angles of the Lord. I heard them speaking about our father Elijah the Thishbite, saying that he was completely powerful in God. There lived in this desert John the Baptist, who of all those who have been born of women, none have arisen who is greater than he. He lived in the desert place until the day of the manifestation of Israel. I said to him, "My fathers, are not then those who are in the desert more excellent than we are? For behold we see each other daily, we partake of the sacraments together and we make use of the food which is prepared for us. When we are thirsty we take water to drink, when we are weak our brethren reach out there hands to help us. When we wish for the loan of a vessel to eat from we make use of those belonging to each other for the love of God, but where shall those who are living in the desert for Gods sake find man if trouble come upon them? If they are hungry where can they find food? If they are thirsty where can they find water to drink?"

He replied, " When they began to lead the life of the anchorite they rejoice exceedingly because of hunger and thirst and the excellence of there manner of life. The adversary who fights with them to tempt them thereby does not wish them to continue the life of the anchorite for he knows the reward is great which they will receive from God when they shall come forth from the body. When they are preaching ascetic labors, the compassion of God comes upon them and He makes the Angel to serve them in respect to there food. He brings for them water out of the rock for it is written in Isaiah 40:31,

"Those who abide patiently in the Lord renew there strength they shall spread out there wings like the eagles in flight they shall fly away and shall not fall. They shall journey and shall not suffer hunger. "

He said water shall be brought to them out of the rock. When they suffer hunger he will make the grass which is in the field to be sweet to there mouths even as honey is sweet. If tribulation comes upon them or danger rise up against them straightway they spread out their hands and they pray to King Jesus, until there comes to them speedily His help which he sends forth and straightway he strengthens them. Because of the integrity of their heart in respect to him." Have you never heard that which is written, "The Lord will not forsake his people, and the patient endurance of the miserable man shall not fail utterly?" and again, "The poor man cries out and the Lord hears and delivers him in all his tribulation the Lord gives onto every man according to what he has suffered . Blessed is the man who shall do the will of God upon the earth! I say unto thee that the angels shall serve him from the time he when enters the body and they shall comfort him at all times in his needs." And to me your brother, when I had heard these things from these perfect man of God they, became like unto honey which is sweet in my belly. A mighty ecstasy took place within me when I became like onto those who's minds are carried away unto another world. I rose up straightway and took a few bread cakes with me, sufficient for the four days journey, so that I might eat them until I arrived at the place which God should appoint for me. When I had come forth from the monastery I looked and I saw a being of light before me. I was afraid, I thought in my mind that I would turn back to the place to which I came first of all and remain there.

When he knew that I was afraid he said unto me "Fear not for I am the angel that dwelt with thee and has traveled with you from your childhood. This stewardship which the Lord has appointed to thee, you shall be able to fulfill." When I had come onto the mountain and I had journeyed in the desert for six or seven miles I saw that there was a cave. I turned towards it for I saw that there was a man inside it. A very great saint of God came out to me, now his form or behavior was goodly, there was a fine graciousness over his countenance. When I had seen him, I made homage unto him. He raised me up and he saluted me. He said onto me, " You are Onnophrios my fellow worker in the Lord, come in, the Lord be with thee. You shall succeed in the good work where unto He has invited you".

I went inside and I sat down there with him for a few days. I learned the rules of the doctrine of God from him and he taught me the regulation which governed the life of the monk in the desert. When he saw that I was acquainted with the hidden and terrible fighting which exists in the desert, he said unto me, "Rise up my son and let me take thee to a desolate place in the inner desert and you shall abide therein by thyself for Gods sake, since God has appointed thee to this work, you must dwell in the desert. " Straightway he rose up and journeyed with me into the desert for a distance of four days journey. At the end of the four days we came to a small hut and he said unto me "This is the place that the lord has appointed thee to live in." And he sat down with me for a month of days until I understood the good work which it was meant for me to do. Afterwards he departed from me and we never saw each other again until this year when I saw him once on the day whereon he lied down the body.

I buried him inside the place wherein he was, and I "Papnoute" said unto him "My good and beloved father at the beginning when you first come to this place did you suffer from the weather?" and the blessed old man said onto me, "I suffered greatly on several occasions from hunger and thirst. The heat outside in the day time and the great cold by night, and my flesh was wasted away by the dews of heaven. When God saw that I endured patiently in my good strife of fasting and that I gave my heart to ascetic practices, he made holy angels serve me and bring to me my daily food. An angel gave it to me evening by evening and he stood by my body. The palm tree yielded onto me each year twelve bunches of dates and I ate one bunch every month. Moreover he made the herbs (grass) which grow in the desert to be sweet to my mouth even as honey. For it is written "Man shall not live by bread alone but by every word which comes forth from the mouth of God does man live." If you do the will of God, he shall take care of you in every place.

For he has said in the holy Gospel, "Take no care for what raiment you shall eat or for what you shall drink. For what raiment you shall clothe thyself for your Father which is in the heaven knows of what things you have need without your asking Him. Seek you his kingdom and his righteousness and these things shall be added onto you." When I had heard these I marveled exceedingly and I said unto him " Oh my holy father where do you partake of the sacrament on the Sabbath day and on the first day of the week?" and he said onto me, "Oh my holy father an Angel of God comes and he administers to me the sacrament on the Sabbath day and on the first day of the week. The angel comes and administers the sacrament to everyone who is in the desert, and who lives there for Gods sake and sees no man. He gives on to them consolation and moreover when they desire to see anyone they are taken up onto the hights of heaven and they see all the saints and they greet them. Thereby their hearts receive lights and they rejoice and are glad with God in those good things.

When they see them they receive consolation They continue to feel comforted for a very long time, and if they are transferred to another world through the joy which they have seen they do not even remember that the world exists. When I heard these things I rejoiced exceedingly that I was held to be worthy to hear them from him. I forgot all the sufferings which I had endured when I was journeying in the desert, strength came unto my body and renewed power came onto my body and to my soul. I said to him, "Blessed am I that I am held worthy to see your holy face and to hear your sweet words." Then he said to me," Raise up oh my brother and let us depart to the place wherein we are to be. " We rose up and we journeyed along together, two or three miles. This blessed old man and athlete was one to marvel at exceedingly.

We journeyed and came to a hut. When we had entered into the hut he stood up and prayed with me. When we had finished the prayers we gave the "Amen." We sat down together talking about the majesty of God. At the time when the sun was about to set I looked and saw a loaf of bread and a vessel of water. He said unto me, "Raise up my brother and eat and drink this small quantity of water for I see that you art exhausted by hunger and thirst and by the toil of the road." I said onto him, "As God almighty lives I will neither eat nor drink unless we stretch ourselves out and eat the bread together. When I continued to press him with difficulty he agreed and we stretch ourselves out together. We divided the bread and ate and put back some of it back. The two of us drank from the vessel of water and we were satisfied and we left some it in the vessel of the water. We passed the whole night in prayer, we prayed to God until the morning.

When it was morning I saw that his face had changed and it was altogether transformed. It was like unto that of another man and it seemed to be wholly of fire. His form terrified me exceedingly, and he said unto me, "Fear not oh my brother in God for the Lord has sent thee to care for my body and bury it. In a day or two I shall fulfill my stewardship and shall go to the place of everlasting rest." Now that day was the sixteenth day of the month of Paone, and he also said unto me, "When you depart unto Egypt, proclaim the remembrance of me as a sweet smelling thing to the brethren. Whosoever shall make an offering in my name and keep me in remembrance, Jesus himself will bring him in the first hour of a thousand years." And I said unto him " If he be a poor man he will not be able to give an offering in my name." He replied, "Let him feed a poor brother in my name." I asked, " If he be a poor man he will not be able to feed him will you not take him into the feast at the first hour of a thousand years?"

He replied, " Let him give a little scent in my name ." I said, "If he be a poor man he will not be able to give scent in your name because of his poverty. Oh my good father let your grace be with us all for whatsoever you shall ask of God, He shall give unto thee." He said, "Let him stand up and say three times prayers to God in my name. The Lord Jesus shall bring him to the thousand years and he shall receive and inheritance with all the saints." And I said unto him "Oh my holy father if I am worthy of it, I should like to be present in your holy abode when you shall cease to be in this body." He said, "Certainly you shall my son for you have not been appointed to the stewardship, but the Lord has appointed thee to console the holy brethren who live in the desert. Proclaim their sweet odor among the brethren who worship God for the benefit of those hearken onto thee. Get thee forth to Egypt oh my son and continue to carry on the good work."

Straightway I fell down upon the ground and I said unto him, "Bless me oh my father that I may be made to stand before God, as I have been held worthy to see thee in the other world before the Lord Jesus the Christ." He said, "Oh my son may not God cause thee to grieve about any matter whatsoever, and may he strengthen thee in his love, so that your eyes may receive the light of his Godhead. That you may neither lean to one side nor fall, but may end successfully the work whereon to you have set your hand. May the angels shelter thee and deliver thee from the plotting of the Jews, and may no accusations fall upon thee when you have to meet God." And when he had made an end of saying these things he rose up and prayed to God with sighing and many tears. Afterwards he lied himself upon the ground and he completed his stewardship in God. He yielded up his spirit into the hand of God on the sixteenth day of the month of Paone. I heard the voice of the angels singing hymns before the blessed Abba Onnophrios and there was great joy at his meeting God.

I took off the garment wherewith I was clothed and tore it unto two pieces. In the one I wrapped up the holy man for burial and the other I used as raiment so that I might not be naked. I placed his body down in a cleft in the rock and I heard the sound of a multitude of angels rejoicing and crying out, "Alleluia" I said my prayer over him and I rolled several stones upon it. I stood up and prayed a second time and straightway the palm tree fell down. I marveled exceedingly at what had taken place. I ate what was left of the bread and I drank of the water which was left to us. When I perceived that it was not according to the will of God for me to remain in this place, I spread out my hands and I prayed unto the Lord. Behold the man who had come to me in the first and who had given me strength, came to me again as he had done before. When we had talked together for a long time� he said unto me "Oh our brother establish your heart with a little bread for you have traveled from a place a far off." After that I came into Egypt after a journey of three days and I described unto the brethren what had happened unto me.

They wrote down these things which they had heard from me, Abba Papnoute, and quickly put them in a book which they sent to -shiet- where it was deposited in the church for the benefit of those who should read or hear it. They glorified God, and blessed His saints through the grace and love to man of our Lord Jesus Christ to whom be glory, and to His good Father and the holy spirit for ever and ever. AMEN.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

St. Mary of Egypt


Introduction

The story of St. Mary of Egypt first circulated among the monastic communities of the Eastern Church in the early sixth century. Her story spread very quickly to the West, and by the end of the century she was well known throughout all Christendom. Western churches celebrate her feast on April 2nd, the Coptic church on April 14 (Pharmuthi 6th), and the Greek churches on April 1st. and on the fifth Sunday of Great Lent. The story of this fifth century Egyptian Saint has become a model of repentance for all Christians.

The present lecture was delivered on the fifth Sunday of Great Lent, April 16. 1989, the commemoration of St. Mary of Egypt. It was presented during the celebration of Vespers at Dormition of the Theotokos Orthodox Church in Cumberland, Rhode Island, USA. The service was part of a Lenten Vesper series sponsored by the Rhode Island Fellowship of Orthodox Churches. The 'Fellowship' represents eight Orthodox parishes in the state including: Anthiochian, American, Coptic, Greek, Romanian, and Ukranian. All of the clergy and faithful from each parish joined in celebrating this great saint of Egypt.

The lecture was presented by Professor Susan Ashbrook Harvey, Ph. D. Doctor Harvey is a faculty member of the Religious Studies Department at Brown University in Providence, Rhode Island. Professor Harvey received her Doctorate in Byzantine Studies from the University of Bermingham (England). She has taught Church History at the University of North Carolina and at the Universitv of Rochester and served a fellowship at the Dunbarton Oaks Center for Byzantine Studies. Doctor Harvey is a recognized Syriac scholar responsible for numerous translations and commentaries. With Doctor Sebastian Brock, she co-authored Holy Women of the Syrian Orient, a collection of newly translated lives of saints. At Brown University she offers courses in Orthodox Church history, monasticism and the ascetic tradition, Syriac and early Christian Literature. Doctor Susan Harvey is a parishioner of St. Mary's Anthiochian Orthodox Church in Pawtucket, Rhode Island, where she serves as a reader and chanter.

Fr. Matthias F. Wahba
On Saint Mary of Egypt

"O Lord, open Thou my lips. and my mouth shall show forth Thy praise"

Today, the Fifth Sunday in Lent, is for the Orthodox Church the Sunday of Saint Mary of Egypt - she whose story has been called "an icon in words of the theological truth of repentancc" (Sr. Bcnedicta Ward). We have heard this story many times. It is a simple one: the sinful woman becomes the penitent, and the least worthy is revealed as God's chosen treasure. It offers us familiar words about the power of faith, and familiar inspiration in the heroic actions of St. Mary herself. But it is, above all, a disturbing story. In the end. it haunts me far more often than it comforts me. Today. I would like to explore where the heart of this story lies, and why it is given to us especially to remember it on the Fifth Sunday of Lent each year.
Three Stories
1. Mary's Life

The story of Mary of Egypt as it is written for the church is really three separate stories: The story of Mary's life, the story of the priest Zosimas, and the story of their experience together. Without doubt, the action and thrills come in Mary's story, which she tells to Zosimas when he finds her wandering in the desert. She had been a wanton harlot form her youth, not for money, she told Zosimas solemnly, but "out of insatiable desire". One day she saw the crowds of pilgrims preparing to go to Jerusalem, to celebrate the Feast of the Exaltation of the Cross. It sounded like fun. She went along, announcing to her fellow-travellers, "I have a body and that will serve as both fare and food for me". The trip rwas an eventful one, as Mary explored the outer limits of lust and passion with her companions (both those who were willing and those who were not, she added.)

In Jerusalem, when the day of the Feast came round, Mary too set off for the church, drawn by the energy of the crowds thronging to venerate the True Cross. But something happened. At the doors of the church, at its very threshold, Mary was driven back "by some kind of force". Trying as she might, she could not enter, although those around her went in with no difficulty at all. Then she understood: it was her own self that prevented her entrance, the sinfulness of her life that held her captive outside the church. Praying fervently to the Virgin Mary, with her heart open and clear, Mary begged forgiveness and again sought entry at the church. She remembered it like this, "A great terror and stupor came over me, and I trembled all over, but when I came to the door which until then had been closed to me, it was as if all the force that had previously prevented me from entering now allowed me to go in. So I was admitted without hindrance, and went into the holy of holies and I was found worthy to worship the mystery of the precious and life-giving Wood of the Cross. Thus, I understood the promises of God and realized how God receives those who repent.

Guided then by a vision of the Theotokos, Mary left at once for the desert beyond the Jordan river, for there, her vision told her, she would find rest. On the way, she stopped at a church built on the river banks; there she washed herself in the jordan, receiving thus her baptism, and partook of the Eucharist in that church, all the while utterly alone. From there, she came to the desert, led still by the vision of the Blessed Virgin Mary. Her new life was begun.

A powerful story, indeed! here was a woman ot true courage, a woman who had the courage to know herself. She lived life with a perfect freedom and a perfect love that few of us could match. Prior to her conversion, she embraced life with her whole heart, with her whole body, with her whole self - with the sheer power of her love for life (not for money, she had said, but for the love of it). Once an early bishop of the church had seen such a harlot in Antioch, and had lamented to his priests, "if only we would adorn our souls for the Lord with half the care this woman has shown in adorning herself for Satan!" (Bp. Nonnos, from the Life of Pelagia). hlary knew herself and understood herself in all of this, again in a way that few of us could match. Hers was a life of total honesty, in the sense of that old adage, "to thine own self be true." It was in fact her very honesty that brought her to her conversion.

At the doors of the church, Mary had hesitated - the first time in her life she had ever hesitated before doing exactly what she desired. At that moment, her honesty enabled her to see beyond herself. And there, beyond herself, she found God. Her conversion was immediate; but so, too, was the grace that answers genuine repentance. For in that single moment on the steps of the church, Mary was both changed in herself, and found worthy in the eyes of the Lord. Her response was entirely in character: with perfect freedom and perfect love, Mary turned the whole of herself to God - her heart, her body, her very life. With the huge courage that had once enabled her to lead her life of sin with clear self-understanding, she now lived her life in the presence of God. The desert became her home, the place where she found her rest. Her conversion and turn to the life of solitude were unknown to any other living being, until after forty-eight years the priest Zosimas came and found her.
2. Zosimas' Story

Now Zosimas' story is, alas, far more akin to our own lives. For we are all too glad to dissociate ourselves from Mary and her sinfulness. Hers is a story so different from our lives, after all. Here we are, in church on Sunday, in our ordinariness. We have our homes and families our spouses and children, our work, our life in the church and in the community. We try to be good Christians, to lead good lives. Even though we know our weaknesses, we know (faithfully) that at least we have nothing so spectacular as Mary's life for which to repent. Who among us could truly identify with her story, either the degree of her wickedness, or the degree of her repentance - for who among us would drop everything (everything) and turn to a life of ceaseless and solitary prayer? But this is exactly why we are so much like Zosimas.

Zosimas was a priest and a monk, sincere, devoted, and earnest. He sought to live a good Christian life, and he did. From his childhood he had pursued the monastic vocation, with piety and discipline: a man who early on had achieved an enviable sanctity. It would be hard to imagine a life more different than Mary's has been: the life of the monastery as opposed to the life of the city streets. But at the age of fifty- three, Zosimas came to a crisis in his life. "It was then that he began to be tormented by the thought that it seemed as if he had attained perfection in everything and needed no teaching from anyone. And so, as he himself said, he began to say to himself, "is there a monk on earth capable of affording me benefit or passing on to me anything new, some kind of spiritual achievement of which i either do not know or in which I have not succeeded as a monk?" Foolish man! For Zosimas had become a prisoner to his own idea of himself, a man who deceived himself about who he was, the life he lived and why he lived it in that way. He did not know himself honestly, and so he became captive to his own life. How far from the freedom with which Mary had lived, and loved, and lived again! But the Lord was compassionate with Zosimas, and spoke to him in a vision telling him to go to the desert beyond the Jordan, 'so that you may know how many and varied are the ways to salvation.'

Zosimas went, expecting to find a great and holy monk who would become his teacher. When he entered the desert, he walked for twenty days into its deepest and most desolate part, rwhere no sign of life could be found. Then he found Mary. The encounter was terrifying and wonderful. When first he saw her, the good priest could not tell whether she was an apparition, a Demon or an animal, and he crossed himself repeatedly to protect himself from the works of the devil. With a jolt, he realized this was a woman. She was naked, blackened by years of harsh desert sun, emaciated from her fasting, her hair short and pure white; and she fled from him, running away as fast as she could. Zosimas knew that here, in this utter wilderness, in this strange and frightening creature, he had at last met something he had never before known: the naked power and presence of God.

And so Zosimas, good man of God, found salvation and truth where he least expected it: in the life of a woman who had been as unashamedly sinful as he had been earnest in his life of devotion. And she, not he, was the Person in whom grace was found. Like the gospel story of the Pharisee and Publican, Zosimas' story is above all a plea for humility in our lives - for fighting against the complacency (both spiritual and social) which is the constant danger for us as we seek to live the life of faith. It reminds us vividly that appearances and actions deceive, that only God knows the intentions of the heart, and that the moment we think we have accomplished true Christian living we have lost our way. At such moments, the penitent sinner becomes our guide and our hope.

And so we come to the third story: The Story of Mary and Zosimas together. It is nbove all a story of giving gifts to one another. From the moment they met, their lives were found to be reversed. Mary, the sinful woman, became teacher and giver of grace; Zosimas, the venerable priest and monk, became disciple and suppliant.
3. Their Experience Together

When Zosimas first found Mary, she fled from him while he ran after her, begging for an audience. Finally, she stopped. He did not know who she was, and she had never seen him. But she knew him before he had even spoken to her, and addressed him by name, "Father Zosimas, forgive me." The priest was struck with dread: was she an angel? Mary, for her part, was alarmed because of her nakedness, and begged him to lend her his cloak so that she could stand in modesty before him. But it was not simply that she knew his name; with no word from him to explain who he was or why he had come, Mary new. She asked for his blessing, reminding him that this was his proper role and recalling his years of priestly service. Then, the story goes, "these words threw Zosimas into greater dread, and he trembled and was covered with a sweat of death. But at last, breathing with difficulty, he said to her, "O Mother in the spirit, it is plain from this insight that all your life you have dwelt with God and have nearly died to the world... But since grace is recognized not by office but by gifts of the Spirit, bless me, for God's sake, and pray for me out of the kindness of your heart." And so Mary gave the blessing.

Eventually, with great difficulty, Zosimas extracted her story from her. He was alternately terrified and wonderstruck as he watched and listened to her. She knew about him - about his life as a priest and the monastery in which he lived, and she clearly understood it all better than himself. When she prayed she levitated. Although illiterate and unschooled in Christianity (she had, after all, fled to the desert as soon as she converted) she quoted scriptural proofs for her teachings. But most of all, there was the enormity of her story. Zosimas drew out from her (much against her will) the details of her former life and her conversion; and he questioned her closely on the hardships of her desert life through those many years. She was as honest with him in the telling as she had been in her living. Not only was she blunt about her harlotry, she was also poignantly forthright about her life in the desert - how hard it had been, the suffering from cold and heat, hunger and thirst; temptation, longing for company and comfort; and yet her determination to live out her repentance in a manner suitable to her sin. She did not see, though Zosimas could, that she had attained a degree of sanctity that could only be measured by the degree of sinfulness she had known. For unlike him, she had no illusions about her accomplishments. She knew only the truth of God, and her love for him.

Then she asked a favor, for she understood that the Lord had sent Zosimas for a purpose. She asked him to return to his monastery and tell no one about her, but in a year's time return to her on Holy Thursday, the night of the Last Supper, and bring her the Eucharist, of which she had not Partaken since her conversion so many years before. Reluctantly, Zosimas left. He had become her disciple. Her presence and story renewed him, giving him life he had lost in the complacency of the monastery. At last he returned at the appointed time, yearning for her presence. She came to him, walking on water to cross the Jordan while he again gave way to awe. As he knelt to reverence her she reproved him, 'What are you doing, Father Zosimas, you who are a priest of God and carrying the holy mysteries?' And at once he obeyed her, resuming his priestly duties with fumbling fervor. Then, the story says, "Mary received the life-giving gifts of the sacrament, groaning and weeping with her hands held up to heaven, and she cried out, 'Lord now let your servant depart in peace, according to your word: for my eyes have seen your salvation."'

Again she sent him away, to return again the following year at the same time. But when the time came and Zosimas hastened on his journey, he found his beloved guide dead, with a letter to him written in the sand beside her body. From this he learned that she had died within an hour of receiving the sacrament the previous year - the fulfillment of her hope. He learned, also, for the first time her name: she signed herself "Mary the sinner." Grieving and marvelling, Zosimas buried the holy woman, helped by a lion who came to venerate the body of the saint. Then, he went back to the world to give the gift of her story to others, even as she had given it to him. And so we, too, know it.

Here we have a story in which the sinner knows the heart of the saintly monk: in which a humble woman gives blessing to the worthy priest because he has seen that her own gifts of the Spirit exceed the ranks of ecclesiastical office; in which sanctity is found outside the monastery more than within; in which the desert, the place of death, becomes the place of life; in which the peace of God's kingdom is restored as the lion and the man become partners in piety. It is a breathtaking story, and it moves us accordingly.